Conversation – 17

@shoelady60,

Have a good night. ✨✨

@oodiebom,

This is my mood tonight I am outraged that the doctor decided not to do your husband’s
surgery oh heck to the no! WHAT!!! This baffles me something is not right here.

Did they give your husband medicine and tell you what the next steps will be?

Honest Oodie if I could fly on my broom I would raise so much hail they would not
know what hit them. I cannot believe how you were treated today. This is not making
any sense I feel he does not want to do the surgery so I would do what I have to do.

I need to calm down you have been super busy getting things ready and this doctor
don’t want to do the surgery he should have had this conversation with you at least
a few days before the actual surgery. Good lord!

@shoelady60

I just posted to defg. Please, if you have a chance, read what I said. All tests have come back negative. Hmm…..I still say try my Parkisons angle. For some reason the onset is what throws the curved ball because there is no shaking, no twitching, no uncommon movement. If you get an opportunity, please read about Alan Alda and his onset with Parkinsons. It’s like a mirror to what I am experiencing with hubby. No one believes me. No one tries. They are all looking for the so called twitch that isn’t there. There is dementia with Parkinsons and also hallucinations. Hubby has dreams that are so real that ihe is actually frightened. It’s always the same. He is being chased by a person and he flings his arms every which way, moves his legs as if running and then he feels he is pushed or shoved and that’s why he falls. There was a time recently, when he was actually yelling at someone for making him fall. I am hoping that I convince this surgeon that I want one more test to confirm or not confirm my thoughts. I am positive Alan Alda had these same tests until he was blue in the face. Then asked to check and that’s the end of the story.

@defg

This was the 4th try. The 1st one I cancelled because hubby needed to be seen by a cardiologist. The date of the appointment was three days prior to surgery and as that turned out he also needed a stress test to check the heart and oxygen levels. All came back good. This was the end of January. Next date was either the end of February beginning of March when the surgeon transferred to another hospital which had a bad reputation and a cleanliness issue. We then transferred within the same group but a different surgeon and the third time he cancelled because he needed to be seen by a neurologist thinking there were some dementia issues. I found out today that the neurologist said everything looked good. But because hubby stated that he thought it was the left knee instead of the right and the fact that he couldn’t recall the year, the surgeon said there is something still going on. So it was cancelled and the impression we both received was that he does not wish to do the surgery and thinks he needs to be trying up North. The reason we remained in Florida was this was the lesser of the two other homes which we felt are not conducive to the surgery because of (1) our home in Ct. is a raised ranch. There are three steps leading to the threshold and six more leading to the first level. Besides, this is the house that will be going on the market sometime soon where I would be doing all the work (packing, cleaning, lifting, etc.). (2) house on the Cape has only one step into the house and that is all that is needed. However, because of bridge traffic and bumper to bumper starting in Plymouth, the trip takes two hours one way. There is little or no parking also in the Boston area and so we take the bus and then walk to where we need to be. This part is now out of the question. The last reason is the physical therapy and on Cape there is only one place which is an hour drive one way. Of course that depends upon the weather and the out of town people. I would hate to see hubby in a situation that we had in Savannah last year. So now you know the situation we are in. The guy is in tons of pain and tries to do what he can and then suffers later. Sometimes in silence. I’ve started to look around to see if there are others in the area that have as good a reputation as the group we are currently working with. Thank you for taking the time to write. I am now at my wit’s end and so is hubby.

@oodiebom

Ditto to what defg said below – unbelievable!!😲 What did your husband say when they cancelled the surgery again? So sorry for you both.😞😪

Good evening, @oodiebom:
I read what you wrote at least 3 times & I’m still in disbelief.😢 So – was today the 5th try to get his knees fixed?!! I don’teven know what to say. So – what’s next?? Like Sheba, I sure wish I lived near you so I could help you out!!
I’m so sorry.. This is like ‘the never ending needed knee surgery story’..😭😢
~DEFG

@sheba2011

Hi to you all. I packed an overnight bag with newly cleaned laundry last night. The only items needed were a hairbrush, toothbrush and razor. Last minute items made it except the razor. I was about to shower when the lights in the bathroom went out. Suffice to say, a cold shower sounded good after getting about 3 hours of shut eye. Hubby was really ready and looking forward for the surgery to be over and done with. Turned out that the entire house was in darkness. I shut everything down, but forgot to do the A/C. Anyway, arrived at the hospital with 15 minutes to spare and admitting took 5 minutes. We walked to the outpatient area and it took about a half hour for someone to come out and take him. 45 minutes later a nurse came out and she said there was a problem. When asked which knee to be operated on he insisted on the left. It’s the right knee. When the surgeon arrived he asked hubby which leg hurt the most. He said at this time the left one. Next was what year it was. Hubby said 202 something. I could tell that the surgeon was hesitant and I asked if he heard from the neurologist. He said yes and everything was fine. But he feels something else is going on. He is hesitating doing the surgery all together. Mentioned that we should head North and find someone else. That maybe a good idea. But whose to say that hubby’s leg won’t give out on the 1300 drive. What about climbing 9 steps to get into the raised ranch. Then on top of it all there is not one good orthopedist with even a 3-star rating in the area let alone the hospitals in the area. Of course we could drive to New Haven or even Boston but the question is where to go for the physical therapy. He now wants us to have a four way in person consultation. This would include hubby and myself with him and his assistant. Why not check the x-rays for Parkinsons. Of course it took 5 yrs for my SIL to be diagnosed with a form of anxiety which was the onset of the disease. And then when you start thinking about my MIL, her disease was due to “old age” when she was in the mid 60s. Again anxiety where she could not sleep at night without her purse. Shaking and twitching fingers, again old age. By her mid 70s, she could not hold an utensil because her hands shook. We all thought it was due to dementia. Today I question that diagnosis. Yes, hubby falls out of bed. And yes, we may need that bedrail. But could there be other underlying causes. Why does a person have to show twitching in a finger or shakiness in other places before the rightful diagnosis is made. Well, guess you can say I am really discouraged. Not sure what will happen next. Suffice to say I have already ruled out some of the better hospitals in Ct because of distance. Physical Therapy in our town is a convalescent home for a month or more. Boston is two hours away from the Cape house due to traffic constraints. So many IFS and seldom are there any plusses.

@oodiebom 🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴🌴

Hi Oodie, sending well wishes, good vibes and prayers for you and your hubby.
May the outcome of his operation be successful and that all went well.
I hope by the time you read this, you are resting and your hubby is in good hands in a rehab facility also resting from his procedure.
Just take your time, rest, and when you can let us know how you two are doing.
Be well Oodie🏝🏝🏝🏝🏝🏝🏝🏝

@Sheba🦋🦋🦋🌻🌻🌻🦋🦋🦋

Good afternoon Sheba, I am also thinking of Oodiebom. I said prayers last night and again this morning.
How are you doing today? We are both well here. I put out the trash and recycling yesterday and today retrieve both large cans just in time for our daily thunder storm.
And now the skies have gone dark again and the thunder has started again.
Not sure what I am cooking today. I have a cut up chicken in the fridge and I also have to cook something for hubby. I think I will make him some diced sweet potatoes with sautéed onions and some pan sauté fish in a table spoon of olive oil with vegetables, green beans, carrots and perhaps snow peas. He eats mostly vegetables rather then chicken, fish or any other protein.
Take care Sheba 🦋 🌻 🙂 💕

The Soundless Center

We have an opportunity to connect with the vast, open, powerfully healing wisdom at the soundless center of our hearts.

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@kittengirl,

Good morning in Cali and welcome to a new week be blessed Kitten. 😘✨

@shoelady60,

Good afternoon in the ‘burgh to you and Mom. Lady I know this is a busy day for both
of you and I hope she loves everything she is picking out. What a sweet daughter you are. 😘✨

Oz had sweet rain and the team won the Game. 😎😜

Here is to a smooth Monday. 😘✨